Jeans, Jeans, Jeans
Can you ever find jeans that actually fit??
They fit around the waist but are too baggy on the legs, you get a baggy bum but fitting legs.. SUCH a kerfuffle!!! I think you know what I'm talking about- buying jeans can be the worst clothes shopping task of them all – especially if you’re looking for the perfect pair.
Another thing that can be super difficult with jeans is growing out of them – in any situation.
Whether you’re moving from a 6 to an 8, or a 14 to a 12.
Now, I’m sure a few people are wondering why this must be so difficult. Moving down a size must be a win, right? But, for quite a lot of people, it can be such a difficult step to take- especially if you are living with or have had a past with an eating disorder.
It can be so scary to move up from your size 4s to get to that size 10, because it is a big reminder of the weight you are putting on- that is ridiculously scary and can even set some people back. Likewise, if you change size in anyway, panic can set it. What if I’m losing weight again? I don’t want to go back to where I was!
Well, I had one of these moments very recently. I put on a pair of jeans which I’ve always loved but haven’t worn in a while – a few months at least. And they fit me around the waist, but they were too tight for my legs.
This really hit me by surprise – I’m used to these jeans being baggy and needing a belt – what’s going on? Change can be extremely difficult. Obviously, this reminded me of the weight gain journey I’ve been on for the past 4 years. At first it wasn’t easy to think about. It brought up a lot of insecurities and personal worries about my eating and it really scared me.
But I spoke it over with a friend- I told them that it really scared me, I felt a bit shook up and we spoke for a while. She reminded me how important it is to feel proud of this. To feel proud of the weight gain and feel happy with the body I have.
This really hit me by surprise – I’m used to these jeans being baggy and needing a belt – what’s going on? Change can be extremely difficult. Obviously, this reminded me of the weight gain journey I’ve been on for the past 4 years. At first it wasn’t easy to think about. It brought up a lot of insecurities and personal worries about my eating and it really scared me.
But I spoke it over with a friend- I told them that it really scared me, I felt a bit shook up and we spoke for a while. She reminded me how important it is to feel proud of this. To feel proud of the weight gain and feel happy with the body I have.
And this is what I want to do through this blog. To remind all of you in this tricky clothing situation or any kind of difficult situation, that if you are on any sort of plan to improve your health and physically alter your body to do this, you have been taking positive steps forward and you should feel incredibly proud of yourself!!
Whether you are battling anorexia, bulimia, binge eating, or various in-betweens and arounds- on your journey of losing & gaining, should feel so proud of yourself and your positive steps and so should everyone around you. No matter how slow, how hard, how mentally draining it is – you are still trying! And that is so amazing!
Our bodies are the home of great battles, great victories, and are the vessel that keeps us living and experiencing life- they go through a heck of a lot. Clothes are made to celebrate and comfort that home. When they no longer fit, they've served you well, thank you very much, but we're moving forward now.
I know it is so much easier said than done – but see your victories as ignoring your disorder, ignoring what it says and celebrating when you achieve any step in the right direction.
If you gain weight this week then celebrate with your favourite snack, if you didn’t binge then go on a beautiful walk, if you ate healthy foods then watch your favourite movie – whatever your achievement is – celebrate that step to a healthier life and love yourself for doing that.
It is a huge step to take and you are getting there. Every step you take is a step closer to recovery, even step backwards, it's all part of the journey so we must keep going!
Don’t let your head tell you that going up a size is a bad thing or that eating healthy is anything less than you deserve – we all deserve health and happiness. So, keep taking those steps and remember…
Finding jeans that fit is a nightmare for all of us!
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